Things I'll Never Say Out Loud

The only place I can be myself.

Sometimes

I feel so overwhelmed by everything around me. My boyfriend ignores me when he’s got better things to do, my family treats me like shit, and the few friends I have left are too busy to spend time with me. Between job hunting and taking care of everyone around the house, I have no time for myself and no time to focus on my relationship. He’s going to break up with me. I just know it. It’s just a matter of time before I say the wrong thing again and he leaves.

I can’t stand it. I feel like I’m under so much pressure and no one wants to help me. Everyone expects me to take care of myself and do everything on my own. I can’t handle it. I just wish it would all stop. 

What’s A Girl to Do When She’s Got Nowhere to Turn

I used to be someone who was friends with everyone. I could confide in a variety of people and trust that they wouldn’t judge me or pass along what I said. But unfortunately those days are over. Friends from high school hardly speak to me, and the girls I confide in at college hate me for no reason. But we’ll get back to that. 

I have my wonderful boyfriend to talk to, but I’m afraid that if I talk to him about everything too much, he’ll get sick of me. And besides, I can’t talk to him when I want to talk about him, now can I? So my options are very slim when it comes to confiding in people. 

I live a very stressful life and I constantly have things that are pushing me to the edge. So unfortunately for me, my options are slim when it comes to venting. So I started this blog as a way for me to get all of my aggression/thoughts out where no one can judge me. Hopefully. 

I apologize in advance for the craziness that is about to be unleashed. Welcome to my life. 

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